Friday, June 02, 2006 . 6:31 PM

Pretence is the mastermind of all while acting is just the accomplice of it.

Dont you ever think about how everyone have pretended before? Even if they had done that, you wouldnt have known. It can be hard or easy to find out who is pretending. Not pretending to be what or who, just pure pretend, pretending not knowing something or some other things. There are many aspects where people can pretend. You just wouldnt know it.

Another way of escaping reality is also to be pretending. You can pretending you are just leading a happy and good life where you are not, just to let people see and envious of how good you are. It is not only shown on television programmes you know, there are such things happening in real life.

When you are pretending about something, acting naturally comes in. Without acting, your pretence would never succeed. Most people will look or sound fake when they do that. That's when you'll realise they are not what they are, but their real self is hidden by that shadow of theirs. How sad.

When you dislike someone, in any way, you cant just go up to his face and say 'I hate you. Stop trying to come into my life.' Imangine how would you feel if someone did that to you. It'll really hurt. It hurts deeply. All you can do is to pretend to like that person and act according to it.

To make it worse, the persons you dislike kept asking you out. You know you dont like the person and wouldnt ever think of going out with him. What do you do? Turn them down straight in their face? Getting rejected is also hurting, mind you.

So the problem is, you dont like the person and needless to say, not wanting to go out with him. There he goes, not knowing how you feel, keep trying to ask you out. Everyday he pesters you. The more he did, the more irritated you get. When you are out of real reasons of rejecting, you find excuses. When he asks you when are you free, you said you dont know. The thing is, he dosent gives up.

Hell, you must be really infuriated, frustrated, irritated. Trying all your might to find excuses and more excuses. Lying soon becomes part of you. Hopefully, soon enough the person would realise your pretence and lies and forget about you. Hopefully.

Life is just so unfair. No one is also perfect. What can you expect from everything in life?

How can anyone be optimistic about anything that has happened? I really admire people who can live their life as usual even if anything big has happened which affects everyone, but he who can tolerate it be optimistic about it and made it seemed it had never happened before. Those will achieve great in future, I guess.

Perhaps one should never have thought so much. Thinking tire one's mind too. Therefore, thinking is bad and affects your health. So I shall go relax and get myself out of thinking. So there.