Wednesday, March 31, 2010 . 10:06 PM
Initially wanted to do some work. Went to ecareer to take some assessments as I was interested to find out what careers would actually suit such a weird and hard-to-please person like me. Regretted. There were so many options I felt like I just wasted the time doing those assessments. The online MBTI sucks too, cos it does not give the exact combination, but it is different from the previous I took in year 4.After this, I feel like I just want to take one step at a time. Now, to do well for upcoming tests, finish all my work(try), do well for CTs, prelims and A levels. Might just wait and see how I do, but I roughly have an idea what I want to study in uni. Just not the career part for now =).
Oh yeah I finally got a new pillow, cos I complained that my neck and body were aching. I suspect that my pillow was too low, thus my dad bought a new one for me! Thank you! =D Now I don't have neck/body aches anymore though the pillow feels weird, cos its shape is weird haha.
I spoilt my left contacts by accidentally closing the case while the lens was stuck at the edge=((. Was very tired a few days back so I just wanted to take out my lens and go to bed immediately. In a haste..........
Sigh, now I will have to wait till I go make another pair, cos dad doesn't have money I think. Maybe I shall pay for myself again, since go uni might be able to take loans to purchase a laptop anyway.
Initially I thought that uni fees would be very very expensive even in Singapore, but I seemed to be wrong. People keep telling me that if I study in Singapore next time, the fees would be affordable and there would be lots of ways to get financial aids. Maybe I have worried a little too much, that I thought of working and studying at the same time to pay the fees =/. It would be hard for me I think -__-.
One more thing. I hate commitments lol! How I wish I can do whatever I like in life. Why must one's life seem controlled such that it's not even an individual's life anymore. Sometimes, its just doing what is considered right to do, not what I want to.
I just want to be here listening to the nice korean and SHE's songs. I don't want to do anything else. There's so much to do...I think I have potential to become full time mugger =O!
Why do I feel satisfied yet there seems to be somewhere empty at the same time. I don't really know what kind of feeling that is. Maybe there's no goal or whatever to move towards to, or that I want certain things but are unable to achieve...
Sad life...yet can be happy at the same time. Complex feelings. More complex than complex numbers.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 . 8:39 PM
Chem test is over...I feel rather stupid. Why can't I do calculations...Really feel very bad cos I just asked Ms lee a lot of questions on kinetics yet its the question I left blank -_-. Hoping for more than just a pass though -cross fingers-.
Talked with qi, amy and tricia about future just now haha. "Future is so near"
I think ever since we stepped into year 6, we really think a lot about our future, what uni we want to enter, local or overseas, what course we want to take, what dreams we want to pursue. Thats a lot huh? Growing up...not.
Don't think I'll be blogging frequently even though there aren't anymore tests till weeks later. I'll still be tweeting though.
Thinking a lot a lot again =/.
Oh and strawberry cheesecake was ♥! First free cone =D
Sunday, March 21, 2010 . 10:47 PM
Oh no I still haven't really started studying for chem test still T_T. No point saying it again and again cos I'll just be using my mouth not my hands. Ah well, I am bad at doing work when I don't feel like it. I just can't make myself do work when I don't have the mood to. I need to train myself to do that asap!!! If not, I won't start on anything ever again. On the hind note, I actually did some kinetics tutorial question before going to band yesterday -_-. Why I do that EVERYTIME?!Oh well, I really want to blog more, but I don't have the luxurious time to do so. Yesterday was our (yr 6s) last Rhythm concert. Quoting from bens, its our fifth and last rhythm! We are so old! Gosh. And yeah, mr ng only knows and remembers my name after 5 years lmao! Okay, the main point I want to put across is, I miss playing in the junior high band. No matter how we might have sounded last time, the family-like warmth while playing together with a big DHSSB is just irreplaceable. I don't think I get any feeling like that while playing in other bands. In senior high, we lack the size maybe. I feel so lonely sitting alone every practice hahaha. Nicole~~~ LOL!
Yesterday was super fun and high camwhoring with senior high band! I love DHSSB(SH) ♥♥♥~~~
Today had part outing - Yue Zhi, Jazreen, Jasmine and me!
Pool. Arcade. Mad for Garlic restaurant.
Very fun!
We all think the horns outings will just be stuck in these 3 generations for us =/. I guess it's fine with me cos I love you all! Nicole, next outing you plan ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! xD
I like talking with certain people but its hard to tell if they like to talk with me. At least got to do so for awhile =)
Monday, March 15, 2010 . 7:11 PM
Confirm cant finish my holiday hw already..having a fever right now and I guess I'll be sleeping/restiing my time away.Lucky there wont be umpiring course tmr, I really want to go for it. I think I'll drag myself there and go root for the rest during the match after that.
Okay sweating like mad just lying down on my bed..very disgusting but ah, I want all the heat to come out T.T okay shall go rest! Tata! Just had the most traumatic experience yesterday. I was back home from nus open house after only 2 hours of sleep, so I was freaking tired. My room was very dark due to the dark clouds in the sky and I wasnt wearing my specs. I opened my bottle to drink and felt some grain-like stuff on my lips. Taking a closer look at the mouth of the bottle, I realised there were many freaking ants crawling about. I dashed to the basin and spit out the water, utterly disgusted. I started washing and spitting and I was still super shocked and disgusted that there were so many ants. My bottle was only left on my table for a day -_-. Tears came out of my eyes due to the shock I guess -_-. Super traumatic I tell you. I couldnt imagine eating ants. Luckily I didnt swallow any of the water and I hoped that the ants werent able to crawl/swim in water.
Enough about those f-ing ants. Yeah, you can tell just how much I hate ants. When I see one each time, I will make sure they die -_-. Sick again, lol. Guess there was a lack of sleep when I went to the chalet.
Happy 21 birthday to Ming Ming (korkor) again! Lol that's what I have been calling my cousin since young. His chinese name is Guo Ming, so I just called the last name haha! Erina and I went to the chalet relatively early and there wasnt much to do. Luckily for us, there was wireless! We surfed the net obviously haha! There was buffet lunch but uh due to a free slice of cake from one of my cousin's friends, we were full and couldnt eat the lunch -_-. Went to ntuc with mum and aunties who wanted to buy 4D (as usual). Aunty molly bought us haagen dazs =D. (She just said she can treat us to ice cream so we chose the most ex one hahaha!) But we didnt eat it so we brought home one tub each =D. And try guessing what flavour I chose xD!
At night when Erica and her bf came over, we went to the arcade. Haha, and that explains the previous post, doesn't it? =D Arcade was really fun! We were all addicted to the jubeat, the cube like thingy with 16 buttons haha. You are suppose to press when the thing appears. You are to press the button only when the thing appears. Okay you can come with me to the arcade and I will show you xD! The best part of it is that the game doesnt end even when you fail the stage, so you wont waste $2. Yes, I know it is expensive, but it is fun! The new bishi bashi is fun too whoo..and the small basketball can win tickets, although not much. Whoots its a long time since I played so many games at once at the arcade! I guess its the best to go to the arcade when people are willing to spend money and are game enough to play the arcade games! =D
Bought drinks for aunty, so we went back to the chalet for a while. Slack for a while, too lazy to go out, but we still went to bowl at 2+ am, I think. I suck at bowling, seriously, or maybe cos I was tired and had no strength haha. Thank you Erica and Bo Lim (correct spelling?) for paying for most of our arcade and all of my bowling expenses! I will treat you when I work next time =DDD!
Had our breakfast around 5am or earlier at subway! We wanted to stay until we can catch the first bus back, but uh I slept on the one seater sofa and I duno if they slept. Was dling songs on my phone then my eyes just couldnt take it -_-. When the aunts woke up, I moved into the room. so I slept for around 2 hours and had to go home bathe, and go for nus open house. Made ching wait for some time(at home) cos we wanted to meet at 10 but obviously I couldnt make it in time. My dad fetched us there in the end haha.
It was quite difficult to find the place, and luckily we were driving, so we could slowly loop around. I guess it was quite pointless going there, other than finding out that we really have to get really good results, which was uh, already a common sense. Hmm, and we saw more ppl at the food bazaar more than the talks/exhibition lol! Oh oh, we went to the business talk with dawn and eve =D. Saw Jazreen and Melody and alot of other dhs ppl.
On the way home it rained super heavily. The cold made my flu worse I think. Had a headache too, after the whole ants thing. Slept from 4 plus to this morning 9am hahaha. Went to see chinese doctor.
Okay traumatic to find out that bio hw is a lot -_-. I have too much work to complete and yet no time to do. Schedule super packed.
Monday (Today) - sick, but I suppose I dont have the time to rest.
Tuesday - Netball
Wednesday - Band camp
Thursday - Band camp
Friday - Band camp
Saturday - Band concert
Sunday - Part outing
Gosh -_-. All the teachers think that we only study their subject, and have lots of time. Happy holidays!
Sunday, March 14, 2010 . 12:27 AM
I love the arcade.I love playing at the arcade.
I love playing at the arcade when there's money in my MIP card.
I love the arcade!
Saturday, March 13, 2010 . 9:34 AM
Just had a loooooooooong sleep after dunno how many months of having lack of sleep. It's not that I want to sleep late, just that some times, it takes me too long to do what I want, or it's just that I am always procrastinating, thus taking 'breaks' in between work. As such, I sleep really late.However, despite having short hours of sleep, I still can concentrate in school. The only problem is being unable to do work once I get home, which leads to procrastination, and the cycle goes. It's not that bad, still.
It seems like recently, more and more people are having problems. The point of blogging, to me, is just an online diary, for me to write whatever I wish to record down, as well as an avenue for me to vent frustrations. Sometimes, if I knew who were the people reading my blog, I would share my joy and other feelings here. And also, I express my unhappiness about whatever or whoever, not caring whether the person or anyone was reading. But obviously, people read and I dont care either -_-.
Who is to judge? No one has the right to. Though I hate people who judge an individual without even knowing much or none at all, about he or she. It is true that sometimes, you cannot accept a certain thing your friend does, I mean come on, even siblings dont accept it at certain times, whats more, a friend. However, this concerns the friendship between the two of you. If the friendship is not important to you, yeah, okay, you can forget about being friends. But if you consider it important, you would reflect and think about what can be done. Maybe not much, but at least it shows you still care about the friendship, the friend you always had.
Thinking back, what's the point of having good friends, or rather, best friends, ones whom you shared everything with, your joy, bitterness, sadness, laughter, food, stationery, and everything else, for many years. Yet, in just a few days of fight or whatever, you became enemies. Such a waste of time, effort, feelings and tears. Okay, I dont think I cried, so take away the tears. I was too independent at that point of time to think of what I would do if I didnt have friends -_-. All I thought of was 'what if I was bored the whole day in school'. Oh but I realised, you dont need to have best friends cos there are other people around you. You can just hang out with more people, and in this way, you get to know more people better. Just that in the end, you wont have close friends that still keep in contact. But I was wrong, I still kept in contact with some =D. And bandmates last really long! Haha, if you read this, you will know its you =O. Classmates + bandmates = long lasting friends maybe? Cos till now, it still seems like it =D.
Haha, but I feel fortunate now to have so many good friends. Band really brings people together, be it by the music, or just the cca, something that you have to go regularly. And of course, people that I can talk to confortably despite not being in band hahaha. And I din write all these just because I thought of these stuff today, within a few minutes. I have been thinking about these for a long time, just that I started typing about something, and yeah, these just came out as well.
That's probably one of the reason why I have been enjoying school this year, even though it should be the year that I should hate most and not enjoyable to go through. For the first term, in fact, I have enjoyed it despite the bad results for my tests. I feel that in fact, I have mugged more than the other years -_-. Not the number of hours, but the effort put in.
Sometimes, people think too much, and as non-egoistic people, some of us tend to think along the line of our weaknesses and bad points. This is bad, but I dont know why. Maybe it brings our self-esteem down, but some people definitely dont show it. It's good to reflect but it's bad if we hurt ourselves.
Okay I dont feel like thinking anymore~ tata! Later going chalet to relax hahaha! Before the long mugging/busy week.
Thursday, March 11, 2010 . 10:00 PM
Hmm okay, maybe not. It's a good day!Oh but I failed math test really badly. I guess I should put in more effort into it if I really want to do well at the end of the year. Need to make sure I do tutorials!
Today's been fun and slack, so its like sort of a holiday mood. Now I cant start doing the math assignment. Guess I'll be sleeping late today.
I have never really thought there would be so much misunderstandings between two people...I dont even know if they should be classified under 'misunderstandings', cos I am not too sure myself what each person actually knows. I am more or less satisfied with the clearing up of certain stuff even though I dont know everything. I dont need to know them. Ah, must be the first time I actually felt this way. Usually I would be bugging until I know everything cos I just hate things kept from me once they are said halfway, even though I dont need to know what was going on, or that certain things are just not related to me and its better if less parties knew about. I am just sad that I cannot really clear up things totally cos that's not up for me to do it.
I can only speak to a certain extent. Gah!
Today's such a bad good day.
Tuesday, March 09, 2010 . 11:50 PM
Chem test is postponed! -happiness- And halfday on thu so there's teo heng + ice cream dayyyyyyyyy ♥Hope my stomach will recover by then >.<. Been having stomachaches whenever food gets to my stomach =(((. Want to enjoy my food! Now cant really eat fried and oily stuff I think =/.
Should get more sleep too =/.
Monday, March 08, 2010 . 8:37 PM
Burh, losing motivation. Wait. Do I even have it in the first place?Many people are going through hard times...by that I dont mean those hard times in terms of money, but just part of the course of life, consisting ups and downs. They are at the "downs", even though I dont know how bad it is. Life isn't great myself.
Having tummyaches for the whole day -_-. Surprisingly whenever I am exercising, the pain goes away temporary.
Today's gp timed assignment killed more brain cells. I dont know why its so taxing to do a compre. I used to enjoy it more. I swear it's not because of the AQ, albeit more cells killed.
I want to slack. There's many things I 'want' to do, but I dont feel like doing anything right now. Maybe its pms ~.~.
Sunday, March 07, 2010 . 12:36 PM
Whoa my mum won 10th prize for lucky draw, an electric oven! A great birthday present for her haha! Oh yeah ytd was my mum's eng birthday and today's chinese one lol. Initially wanted to bring her out to eat but stayed home cos of this carnival thing. But its a good thing =D! Happy birthday to mummy again! ♥12.38pm
It impossible to sleep in! >.<. Kaki Bukit Town Day 2010 is being held at the open area downstairs my block so I got woken up at 8plus am on a sunday morning T.T. Went to 凑热闹 with mum and saw the guest of honour SM Goh up close! There's performances, traditional games and food (malt candy!!!=D), booths about heritage, SPCA, NEA, LTA etc etc, balloons, goodie bags and lucky draw lol. Sounds fun, but it would be more fun if I am still young hahaha. Can walk on water in a ball! They are showcasing malay wedding ceremony now lol... Hmm I think I cant study again today =/.11.30am
Friday, March 05, 2010 . 10:53 PM
I seriously want to acquire the ability of mind reading.Rarh! If this goes on and I keep blogging sentences, I was thinking I might as well get a twitter account. Can lock somemore worh! Should I?=/
How you will feel at this point of the time next year will all depend on how well you have prepared for the battle.
Felt happy after eating takoyaki and haagen dazs just now ♥
There was a lot of things I wanted to blog about but after reaching home, those thoughts have dispersed. Was really tired and thought of sleeping, but as usual, bathing woke me up, thus coming here instead.
Sometimes I dont feel comfortable speaking here because I feel that there would be many people I dont really know reading what I have typed. I hate being judged by people(not like anyone does enjoy it), especially those who dont even know me. More often than not, people like myself just assume what we perceive is the "truth" and what we know is right. However, we are really wrong and I dont think any of us have the right to critique as though we know the whole story behind anything. I hate these people even though I may have committed such mistakes too =(.
What I want to express is just for myself cos I guess sometimes its weird letting people know what your true feelings are. I am timid and dont like feeling exposed. It's like playing a piece of music with many other people in a band. Sometimes you have solos and you just have to step out of your comfort zone to deliver it. Of course, if you aren't good enough, you wouldnt want to embarrass yourself, thus too afraid to deliver what is expected of. Trying hard enough will get you there though, that's the good thing about playing such music. And of course, having understanding and nice bandmates help too.
There, true feelings for once, since a long long time.
I shall continue maybe later. A little hungry.
Thursday, March 04, 2010 . 11:57 PM
I have always wished for the ability to read people's minds, or at least know what or how they are feeling. It really will be useful to me lol. It would be bad if everyone has this ability though, cos the world will turn upside down if it happens.Wednesday, March 03, 2010 . 6:42 PM
Feels so relaxed now that this week's tests are all over even though I screwed up both tests today lol! Cos the pressure is released I guess >.<. Tests are horrible!Tuesday, March 02, 2010 . 8:19 PM
Super duper tired T_T.One's down, three more to go! Can't wait till next week! A break after what seems like short 8weeks worth of school. Really have no mood to study. No energy at all -_-. Bet everyone's mugging really hard while I am typing this =/.
Okay focus, stay focus! You have your music to accompany you through the night~
Monday, March 01, 2010 . 7:40 PM
I have concluded that my productive period is from 9pm to 1am!For the past few days I have been able to produce/absorb academic related stuff during this period of time haha! I actually finished 10 math tutorial questions ytd leh! (even though they were the easier ones) Joanna was proud of me haha!
And today, another technician from singtel came over when I was in school. Problem fixed and he cleared up my mess lmao! All he did was to re-lay the wires and uh change the socket thingy. He said that those disconnection problems might have been due to the rust on the over-30-years-socket. Much better than the previous technician, who was probably too lazy to do all that. Actually I din have to purchase this wireless thingy for the mio tv, but aiya nvm, since bought already, can keep for future use if needed. I was surprised all those stuff he helped us do was free of charge. He's really hardworking and takes pride in his work! Hopefully we can get to him if there are any other problems in future. Mum said its easier to communicate to a chinese too! Language barrier plus work attitude also luh =).
So hopefully from now on there wont be much problems and I can use my house phone again! =DD Lol I still remember the people who laughed at me when I told them my internet dcs whenever someone calls my house phone. "what's your home number?"
-_- now okay le! hahaha.
Okay its not 9 yet, but I should probably start a bit of econs now while waiting for my turn to go to the doctor's. Zzz lor number 27 is so long.
