Sunday, January 15, 2012 . 12:52 AM

Relationships exist everywhere - kinship, friendship, romantic relationship and so on. A relationship is easy to forge, or at least more simple as compared to maintaining one. Most of the time, we don't even have to create one - the fact that two are strangers is an example. However, it is really difficult to maintain relationships that are forged. Not to say that it is easy to maintain kinships but it's special as people who are family are related by blood. 'Blood is thicker than water,' so we are somehow already connected deeply and will not be separated that easily.

I do have love-hate relationships with presents sometimes. Firstly, I can be attached to my present because i really like the present itself or second, I like my present because of the person who gave it to me. Thus, a gift is really meaningful to me, especially if both likes apply. However, it is taxing to try to decide if I want to keep a present which was given to me that the first like still lingers yet the second is no longer present. Should I throw it away then?

Lastly, I still have feelings for my 'old fames'. My beloved childhood plush toys especially! I am one who likes to keep things as momento and I guess due to watching too many animal shows and reading too many animal books that I find it difficult to throw or give away my soft toys.. No choice today because i really have too much things that they overflow to my parents' room initially and to my living room currently. Therefore, I have cleared out quite a lot of stuffs and I feel accomplished!

Time for bed! Couldn't sleep again just now so I shall try yet again. Nights!

Monday, January 09, 2012 . 12:29 AM

Been think a tat too much since some time back. Things that are bothering me may be small things to some but they do make me feel emotional at times. It's become a habit to just listen to songs and think about stuff and onl realize that tears come dropping down during the touching songs. Or rather, songs that touch me. I go with my heart more than my head so it's no wonder that my tears flow when I don't even understand the lyrics of the songs I listen to (can roughly guess what they are by now or close by).

That aside, I had lots of fun and enjoyed myself through from christmas to new year to my birthday! Glad I could meet up with some loves whom I missed dearly. (Although not for some, I'm happy enough. And I certainly hope there will be some chance to meet some day.) Not forgetting, the dearest one who's always by my side has made me smile (almost) all the while! Somehow also popped up a cool surprise since I had almost really never thought of being surprised. Never thought I would have such a great end of year last year and birthday too!(Even though yes, I knew I would enjoy my birthday this year no matter what.)

Come to think of it, there's like a timeline to every years' birthday. I remember I used to think of birthdays as just some normal days when I was younger because my parents are traditional, they don't celebrate birthdays. Cannot believe that some people from the older generation received "smacks on the butts" from their mothers on their birthday due to the pain they caused during birth. Anyhow, I grew to like birthdays as I learnt to celebrate them. One of the more memorable birthdays was one which I went to the Escape Theme Park with a few good/best friends in either primary five or six. Disliked it sometimes cos it's the early part of the year and not many remember.

The best parts came when I got to know awesome friends in dhs. I began to look forward to my birthdays then. It was like some sort of compensation for the younger days which I don't have celebrations nor receive presents other than the toys which I bugged my parents for. The awesome parts were having surprises. You don't know how elated one can be when one receives a surprise! As small as it can be, a surprise does wonders to make one feels loved, fortunate and happy.

And now, things have changed. I no longer care for the presents part. I feel happy just receiving the well wishes. Spending my birthday with people I love and also spending other days with them is good enough.

Not to forget, Facebook came into play and I'm also glad to receive tens of well wishes from friends and loves be it they truly remembered the date or rare reminded of it. Irony present is that I am wished well by people I'm not close to yet I don't get from some who I think are close to me.

Somehow the post has come to this, even though I don't know how many people actually come to this blog anymore, I want to tell you all that I really appreciate all the well wishes and presents and surprises that you all have given me through my life. No matter who you are, as long as you have done any of the above on any of my birthdays (especially the ones who have been through memorable birthdays and surprises with me), THANK YOU SO MUCH! <3

Gotta thank my parents (and godmother) who have showered me with unconditional love since I was born and all they have done for me too!<33

Family and friends are just important people to me. I think I still can remember some of the friends I have made in kindergarten one lol. Long appreciative post. Been long since I have done this. Feels fortunate right now. ^^

Thank you, to whoever finishes till here!<3